Look at this way. You’re already so far along in your journey that you know what bad looks like. If you know what you did is not ideal, you can improve. Better to be a bad writer with humility than a bad writer who thinks themself great.

What motivates you to do it so badly? Can you find ways to explore that while only gently experiencing the self-judgemental bits?

maybe being bad at it should be the goal. being good would mean masking your truth and filtering your reality.

I used to write a lot. I had a permanent tab on Sublime Text constantly open where I would put all of my thoughts into. After switching editors I sort of stopped doing that. I want to get back into that habit, perhaps textlog is an opportunity to do so. Of course I was bad at it but it didn’t matter. Not until I articulated a thought into text it became concrete, and then I could analyze its structure and meaning. Nonsense mostly and delusions, if someone reads them. But they made sense to me.

write. and be honest about your own skills. humble yourself, and just keep doing it. you will improve, and its going to feel good in a whole other way than all those things you seem naturally good at. this was my journey with dance, i started late. its gotten me a healthier relationship with myself and the standards i set for myself. if you just want to be good at writing, but dont write, you dont want to write.

Who are you writing for? If for yourself, who cares - write. Do it in a place/tool that allows you to edit/rewrite some parts. In the future you can re-clarify, or if you get better, you can improve them. Focus on what you enjoy to write and write away.

I think reading helps quite a bit, especially writing about what you’ve read, even to yourself, just so you can go through the process of having to explain something that you’re only recently familiar with. There’s something about that process that seems to be helpful, at least to me.

Same. The way I consume information influences how I think. Short form content makes my thinking fragmented without a clear structure. I feel that fragmented thinking won't lead to convincing writing. And I'm trying to regain some of that lost control.

The fear of being bad at it is the only thing holding you back. I experienced something like that with playing music with others. Perhaps you could learn to lay down your critical brain during the creation process and that good/bad isn't a useful distinction until later when you're editing your work.